Today was my last day of work until September 8th when I will be at 8 weeks of recovery on the dot. It was strange packing up my stuff, paying careful attention to how heavy I make the boxes so that I can manage them in September.
I had a co-worker, (who was told by another co-worker that I was going to be having surgery!!), tell me her "nightmare stories" about her three c-sections. I was really annoyed by how rude she was. It's funny how some people are so supportive and others are just total downers and they don't hold back with their bad news.
The bottom line is that this is going to be my experience and mine alone, it may be great, it may suck. But I will get through it and move on.
As far as my state of mind goes-- I sort of wish the surgery was tomorrow. The wait is very difficult it's just more time to think and get worked up.
I will spend the next two weeks checking off items on my loooong pre-surgery To-Do list, including cleaning, shopping, prepping meals and freezing them and catching up on rest so that I am good and healthy for the next two weeks. I am looking most forward to the cleaning-- because that organizes my brain. I am looking least forward to shopping for medical equipment like the grabber, a raised toilet seat...stuff that is going to probably help me, but stuff that I really don't want to have to need. Stuff that will also cost money, $$ which is hard to part with when you are only going to use the stuff short term.
Ah well.
That's my head space today.
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